Feelings of Faith & Despair

I cried for the moment to end
To come back again
To stay frozen forever.
Anxiety?
Maybe. Anticipation? Trepidation?
Excitement? Desire? Fear?
Why name an emotion?
Instead just feel.

It sits there in my gut,
Waiting to erupt.
Longing for you.
No, waiting for you,
Like a monk.
My body it's monastery.

It has a faith I lack.
Never looking forward or back.
It knows you'll come along,
To me, for me. Mine.
This faith feeling,
This destiny divine.

Like Love it is everlasting,
This moment, pin needle sharp
In time.  A razor’s edge
So thin, tightrope walked,
Exponent of infinity, 
A constant point.
Just there,
No equation
Or equal sign.

I wait here.
For it to explode.
For infinity to cease.
The amalgamation of all I feel
To come together 
In one Big Bang.

Poof.  It goes.
Not a whimper 
Or whisper.
Life goes on
As before.

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