Behind Closed Walls

A castle stone wall with a door
Something drops away
A tear, a tear, a rip of fabric unsewn
Leaving me open, vulnerable, alone
I shy away, withdraw
Into myself, my shell, my home
A castle, bridge drawn up,
Moat filled, arrows drawn

Stop!
Or I'll shoot!
Stop!
Or I'll cry!
Stop!
Or we'll die
All together, all apart, all the things
In my heart.
My heart screaming stop
Silently echoes.

Wander ghosts.
You spectral shades,
Of past, present, future
Mistakes I have/will/am made
Make and making.
Take my echo and play them back to me.

The drawbridge stays up
I invite you into my secret garden
I tell you truths
You decipher the words repeated 
I do not say.

Random Thought

Fat is Sexy

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Fat people are sexy.  I don’t know why there is still body shaming for fat people especially fat women when you look at porn sites and there is a specific category for fat people.  That means that even though people are saying that fat isn’t sexy when it comes to looking for sex they’re looking for fat people.  And yes I’m calling them fat.  Not BBW, not chubby, not big boned, FAT.  Ain’t nothing wrong with being fat. Now health issues are a whole other thing and having a big waist or not does not make one healthy or not, so I’m not addressing that here.  I’m talking aesthetics, outside appearance.  And I’m not skinny shaming anyone either.  Your kink is cool as long as it doesn’t harm another creature. And personally I love all sizes of women.  Just saying the fat shaming and negativity needs to stop.  There’s no reason for it and it’s not even that popular.  Fat people are sexy.

What do we do next?

My thoughts on the next steps to take to control COVID-19

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So with vaccines available and with a majority of those who can get the vaccine with at least one dose, here in Canada.  And the 4th wave looks to be imminent. The question becomes what next?

I’m no doctor, or scientist or politician or … or … or …  I’m just a guy behind a keyboard with some thoughts.  So take everything here with that knowledge.  Hopefully a bit of common sense is seen throughout these thoughts but I can’t claim any special knowledge or insight.  What follows are my thoughts on what the next steps should be for dealing with COVID-19. 

  1. More vaccinations
  2. Vaccines in those places that don’t have them
  3. Let people die
  4. Back to more tracing, masks, social spacing, etc.
  5. Build more ICU and COVID beds/spaces
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1. More vaccinations

We need to get more people vaccinated.  I think it will happen but we’ve definitely hit a plateau.  As more places require vaccinated status and more and more people see the effects of COVID for themselves I expect to see more vaccinations but I don’t expect another surge of people getting vaccines. 

2. Vaccines in those places that don’t have them

We need to get the vaccine to people who want the vaccine but don’t have it. This includes developing countries, underserved communities, children, etc.  If we leave out places where they don’t have access to the vaccine there is more opportunity for the virus to mutate and for those infected to re-infect those who have been vaccinated. 

3. Let people die

People aren’t going to say it, so I will.  Some people are not going to make it.  That is going to have to factor in.  There is going to be a prioritization. It already happens.  People with access to treatment through money or access because of location are prioritized.  Those who are more likely to recover are prioritized.  Whether it is direct or implicit, prioritization happens. We need to be prepared that we are going to have to let some people die.  People are already dying.  It’s a fact. Let’s face it. 

4. Back to more tracing, masks, social spacing, etc.

I know it has been politicized and people are tired of it but masks work to slow the spread and they’re here to stay for a while.  There needs to be a going back to mask mandates.  Masks work best in protecting other people from the wearer.  Basically it traps more of the germs and droplets from the wearer so they don’t spread.  Knowing that even vaccinated people can spread COVID, it  just makes too much sense not to reinstate and continue mask mandates.  What needs to be brought back and beefed up as well is contact tracing.  This was never utilized to the best of its ability.  Alerting those who have been in contact with those who have COVID will let them get tested, more on that in a bit, and to isolate. Knowing the areas where there are flare ups will also help in setting up and preparing hospitals and ICU units in those areas.  Testing also needs to be ramped backed up and become more efficient. We now have home tests and rapid tests though they can have accuracy issues, they’re still pretty good but as more and more people move about there is going to be an increase in the need for testing and fast, easy, accurate tests.  This has fallen off a bit but let’s not be lax in our innovation with testing.  They can be faster, easier and more accurate than the baseline that we have now.  The jump isn’t that far so let’s get to it.

5. Build more ICU and COVID beds/spaces

This hasn’t been discussed enough in my opinion.  One of the major reasons for shutting down states and many of the measures that governments are taking is being justified by the need to save room in hospitals and specifically ICU departments.  Well one way to alleviate that is to decrease the number of patients, which we’re doing and trying but another is to increase the number of spaces, which we’re not, that I’ve seen or heard of. 

Now I know that when people think of creating more beds and room for ICU and COVID patients they think of more hospital rooms and that would be a big expense and take time.  And to be honest that is an option and one that should be looked at.  Let’s increase smart funding for hospitals and health care including increased ICU and hospital rooms. But that is not the only option when it comes to increased beds.  I think most of us have seen the pictures of hospitals putting up tents and beds in parking lots or other extreme measures like that.  Why not put up some temporary beds, modular type in nearby malls with empty space?  We’ve all heard about how malls are struggling, and have seen it where the large department stores have left and stand empty.  They are located at easy access places, plenty of parking and when people see COVID patients in their neighborhood as they shop maybe it will wake some up to how real this is.  It can be done.  Rent out the space.  Multiple wins.

Also training for nurses and doctors.  Yes, a long term solution but they’re needed.  We’re losing people at an alarming rate.  Tuition help, reimbursements, loan forgiveness, academic help, immigrants. All of it.  Also, there can be something done to help alleviate the burden they have and provide more jobs. Assistant to assistant nurses or something.  Something entry level, low skill, easily and quickly trainable.  Even if all they do is pick up charts and empty bedpans.  It takes a bit off the nurses and doctors and could help for the off-site COVID rooms.  And what about when the need isn’t as great?  The levels aren’t as swollen?  Training.  Have them cover for nurses as they get more training.  Train them for higher up nursing roles.  Cross train them so they can cover different areas.  The point is to have trained personnel available.  More is better than less in this case. 

Another thing I’d like to see is more talk about treating COVID specifically as a viral infection before it becomes serious.  Because it is a virus it is up to the body to fight it off, which is why vaccines are so effective.  They get the body ready for the virus and to recognize that it is something the body needs to fight and having had the experience of beating it so it can attack the virus early and with it’s best fighting.  So the best you can do with a viral infection is to have had a vaccine, have a hearty immunization system, rest and time.  However, we can treat symptoms.  So, more COVID related symptom relievers would be good.  I”m sure there is plenty already out there they just need to add COVID on the box and a little dosage remixes and warnings.  This may seem counterintuitive as the goal is to get more people getting vaccinated rather than trying to “fight” the virus without.  But my thinking is that if people have a symptom reliever and that is not working they’ll know they have a more serious problem that should be looked at and hopefully won’t show up in emergency rooms in more desperate shape.   Also, the hope is that it will encourage more people to get tested so they know which symptom reliever to get. Also, say for those who are vaccinated with milder symptoms they get some symptom relief. Hey, it’s rather weak but at this point weak is better than nothing.  It’s something we can do, now that vaccines are here and we’re going to have to learn to live with COVID being around for a while. 

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So those are my thoughts on what should be done next.  Which, if any, of these things will happen I don’t know.  How they would happen would require political will, policies and money.  Also, a desire and acceptance from the population.  I personally don’t think COVID is something that we’ll be done with in a year or even two.  I also don’t see it as a permanent part of our future.  What happens next will be a stepping stone, hopefully upwards, to a future in which we can go about our daily lives without the worry of contracting the virus with deadly or serious illness for a large part of the population. 

A new erotic story is in the works

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I have a new erotic story that will be published soon. Most likely within the next month, September, or at the latest October. This is a longer story, a novella, than my previous two erotic published stories. Again set within a pandemic, though early in the pandemic and lockdown. More details to come, along with a cover reveal. Stay tuned.

2000 Followers / Desert Flower

2000 Followers / Desert Flower


The Dahlia, open blooming 
Far from Africa’s dusty plains. 

Bawdy songs float through the day’s rain. 
Sphallolalia - wink and cry. 

Pancakes, breakfast in bed, sorry. 
Apology not accepted.  

Circumlocution keeps us bound, 
A big toe in a direct stream. 

Incandescently glowing love,
Shadows blind our eyes to flaws seen. 

Sitting in a bed above a 
Garden in Spring with you naked. 

Whispers left too much unsaid here, 
We can’t apologize again.

Our bodies fused, eyes blind, don’t see 
Because we no longer see us,

Instead we look at the raindrops,
Counting grains of the desert’s sand.

Look at the rose, its petals fall.
Dirty rhymes no longer bring joy.

So on my Twitter account @authorstew I reached 2,000 followers in July. So for reaching 2,000 I had my followers send me words and I said I would put them into a poem. The words are listed below.

xDahlia – flower

xSphallolalia – Flirtatious talk that leads nowhere.

xPancakes

xCircumlocution – a roundabout or indirect way of speaking

xAfrica

xBawdy – obscene

xBig toe

xIncandescently – aglow with ardor, purpose, etc.:

We Satisfy One Another

Meeting together
Night after night.
Bodies together
Melding of minds.
Your breath hot.
Tongues twirl.
Swirling, sucking,
Meeting together.
Kisses turn naked,
Skin against skin.
Where you stop
Is where I begin.
Touching, tasting,
Pleasures delight.
Reaching between us
Kisses turn naked.
Bodies slam,
Staccato jam.
Echoes of our meeting
Fill our bedroom.
Moans and cries,
Guttural groans, sigh.
Arching, we bend,
Bodies slam
Meeting together.
Kisses turn naked.
Bodies slam.
We satisfy one another.

She Burns Flame & Desire

Red heart with eyes in front of flames on a dark background.

Image by foxyvanloxy from Pixabay Modified by me.

She burns
Fire in the night
The flame dims
Fatigue rides in her eyes
I hunt her
Desire my delight
She calls to me
Through lips never parted
I crawl through jagged arrows
To cradle her in my arms
We come together
Flame and Desire
Yet there are no explosions
Just appetites warmed